I know i said i wouldn't ever have a public commentable personal journal again, ahhh what the hell, i don't have much to emo about thesedays anyway that would annoy anyone, lol, so yeah whatever.
Maybe i should LOOK for emo though :O I can't have a happy livejournal, that's just crazy! I need somewhere to pour my black as crowpoo shadowy soul and have my net friends give me cyberhugs and say 'i understand .___.' SO ONWARDS! :D
Lets see, what's been happening in the life of me lately? Well since i got back on the internet in January i've not really done much online, i've been working hard offline however with my various projects and commissions i need to do. I've got lots of stuff to update the.com with but i can't until i shift some of these commissions first, otherwise i'd feel nasty and rude. But yeah, i've been working my ass of on commissions of which i DAMNWELL HOPE to have finished very soon. I -loathe- owing people stuff because it stifles my creativity and makes me feel like ass.
What else? Hmmm well Digi and Mangaunksai are coming to stay with me next week for 5 days and then im going back down to London with Sai who is staying with her yuppie!Dad in Windsor. I get kinda angry at the popular opinion flying around that i kiss Sai's ass to be popular e_e; She's a very good friend of mine and i love her to pieces, i'd still wanna have her illegitamite children even if she was an admin at MYSPACE. I mean c'mon, cut me some slack. She was MY fangirl first. Anyhoo. Fun will ensue and i promise lots of photos of us all acting like tourist idiots.
I'm currently working on something for someone for E3. So yeah, that stresses me a bit.
What else is bugging me... oh yeah, the fact that my best friend is ill and might have cancer gets to me. I'm going with her to the hospital on the 30th and its really scary, she has to get all these scans and crap and i want to be there for her. Its just... woah.
JAPAN is happening after Auchinawa, which is great. i've always wanted to go there. If its decent i might stay there for quite some time like how i lived in America. I'm not expecting it to be all glamourous and EEEEFUCKINGKAWAAIIII but i want to see the BUIDLINGS and the blossoms. I have a big thing for both skyscrapers (have done since i was a kid), anything futuristic, and i have a promise to keep to my dad that i made when i was a tiny little troll X3 regarding pink blossom trees. I'm not going over there for the anime or any crap like that, im going for the experience and the ambience. I need something different from this place here in Scotland. Its one of those places i know i need to go in my lifetime. It's weird like that. Just as i knew i'd end up in america. So yeah i'll be living with Tabi for a little bit in his apartment in Tokyo. To say im excited is an understatement. He sent me a parcel full of awesome and hilarious Japanese snackfoods (YES! I OWN A HOMO SAUSAGE!) along with a NiGHTS promo video (hour long! official!) that i'll be putting up on the site via torrent as the file is really huge. Ahahha life rules. I wanna meet Ohshima dammiiit XD *STALK*
Other things on my mind, hmmm, trying to remember how this LiveJournal works for one. Also laughing that people still actualy WATCH me on this, woah! Thanks, i'm humbled :)
After i get back from Japan (if i get back)i may be doing W.E at Rockstar North which is situated here in Edinburgh, conveniantly! I dont want to commit myself to any awesome jobs until i get my mad traveling urges out the way, so until then im a free lady working on oddjobs and crappy employment but i dont care, its fun now.
I have 2 self published comics im working to finish for Auchinawa, so i need to get my skates on with that. Also i need to finish my damn cosplay outfit. People have been sending me all sorts of amazing things for it which i cant wait to use! O_O I'm such a slow seamstress, ahaha. At least i got the hat finished though, that was truely hellish. I still have TONS to do for it.
I'm very slowly getting my debt under control which is like essential to my sanity i think. I panic a lot at the slightest thing, and that was one of my main concerns. Its one thing dropping out of college twice but when you have 2 bank loans hanging around your neck afterwards that you dont want anymore its pretty frightening, especialy when you just want to forget about the shitty year prior. So when i get that outta the way i can just pick up my self esteme and move on from a lot of bad things that happened recently in my life. I'm already feeling a lot happier though. So i guess i win.
Oh yeah! Also i finnaly got the courage to put my Autobiography on Deviant art. That was a major part in my self healing that i severely needed to air. Now i feel good inside. I still have many chapters to upload though, its not through all the bad stuff yet by a longshot. It's up to 8years old and im currently 24 so yeah.
Man im 24, is till can't believe it. I dont feel 24, seriously. I feel COMPLETELY unequiped in maturity to be this age. Lol maybe i missed out on growing up XD Oh well!
And now for no reason here's a picture of my puppies noooooooooooose!
iM FEELiN KiNDA: arty
Shakin' her behind to: Daiji na mono wa mabuta no ura